this is a pointless entry.

some people are really starting to bother me. no one you know, but consider yourself lucky.
there are those who are almost scary. like im not sure if i should talk to them or not. friends from life's past. you know? like im sort of thinking.. hmm do i really want to talk to these people again? but im putting myself on a leash, not going to let it go far.
ah, theres a lot i want to say. but i feel afraid to say it all. and that took a lot of gut to say too. crap. am i becoming a recluse again. crapcrapcra.
yes, this is just a pointless venting poolosa. myspace is filled with too many.. ah, readers. yeah. and facebook. well i have to gaurd everything i say now. i didnt realize how much my family pays attention to that. now theyre going to be all freakworried again cause i included "sketchy lyrics" in my status and picture. woopie deeee.

im really mad that none of my school friends bothered to return any of my texts over the two weeks. like tyler. he always thinks hes so much more important than the rest of the world. like he only has time for him and his girlfriend. its gotten to the point where his annoying little brother texts me more than he does. i dont really talk much to the "friends" i have in school either. like we may all sit together in the morning, but i really dont want to. i sit in this huge throng of people, and my friends like tyler and alyssa sit in the back, in the middle, and so its weird cause im just like this awkward 34732 wheel to this group. theyre all older than me, but the sophmores of the group all sit near the front, and i know them a lot better and frankly find them more interesting, but im not on the same level as them, psychologically. it consists of those like philosopher want to be people, the veterinarians and twilight freaks. the save the earth people and the 'let me ask you a ponderous question' people. but theyre still fun to talk to. idkk.

im very ready for the new highschool to open up. i think ill feel so much more...better about it.
ugh. im stressing about the school work too. i just rememebered that i have to to stay after for two tests in bio after school, but i really need to stay for the tutoring too. crap.
i think im going to take a walk, then see if i can go home.
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sorry this one is dumb.